disappointment

it's weird how just one event can change everything.

i was super happy today, well for most of it. just one thing happened that just made me feel like ish =/ i hate it..it's been happening a lot to me lately. a good thing happens, i feel as if i'm on top of the world, nothing can stop me...then something happens, probably the most miniscule thing you can probably think of. it just throws off everything...i think this time frame is the most i've experienced this. i dont know if it's just senior year just sucks for me, but i'm starting to think so. hate it, hate it, hate it.
so many problems...so little time to deal with all of them.

might as well stay in seclusion for awhile so i can clear my head, which i think i cannot do.
i've been sitting in my room for the past 3 hours feeling like ish, not doing anything. just homework, strictly homework. no play =/ hardly ever happens, it's just one of those occasions that when i feel really etchy, i do something to cover it up. call it emo if you please, without the cuts and physical pain.

i havent made one of these kinds of posts in a long time, just venting out. wow

i'm probably taking this song completely out of context, but it's the only song that works out with how i'm feeling right now

nothing ever really got to me,
i can always turn the other cheek.
could it be those days are gone?
i could've sworn that i was strong,
at least stronger than these emotions,
that are taking over me.
i swear, i'm stronger than these emotions,
that are taking over me.