just wanted to add...

every fourth of july has always been the worst day for me. every fourth of july, i always end up crying. it's been something i've been really used to for the past 4 years...this year isnt any different..

seems like everyone here doesnt remember this day as a sad one, on the other hand...i havent forgotten.

i've written about this before...so many times before, but i think it's time that i re-write what i think. because things change over time

you were such an inspiration to me when you were here. you still are. throughout the past years, it hasnt been easy for me, no doubt. i've gone up with the toughest problems i've ever faced. i dont know how i got through them without the help of god. what else have gotten me through these problems? the answer is thinking of you...it really helped me, because i know you wouldnt have given up.

i know you're not gonna read this, the person i've been truly missing for the past 4 years...i just wanted to get this out because it's been burning me up inside.

like i said before, i truly miss you and i love you. i wish i can say it to you face to face, but unfortunately i can't.

july 4, 2008 10 PM

i cant believe that i've held up for this long.

i really miss you and i hope you're doing ok for this amount of time that i havent seen you...4 years...wow