hey, how've you been? i know that it's been awhile. i'm sorry.
there's a lot going on right now for me, but i should update on how i am. for one thing, this upcoming week is the last week before finals. yes, the fall 2010 semester is almost over. i can't wait. this was the hardest semester out of the three i've gone through. even though it was the same number of units i took last fall, it was a lot more difficult because all the things that has happened these past few months. but nonetheless, i'm ready and pumped for spring semester.
i'm taking 14 units, the most i've ever taken since college started, but i'll be focused a lot more. no distractions whatsoever. in other words, i'm taking most of my classes alone. it's very beneficial, so that i don't have the temptation to talk to anyone. all i'll be doing in class will be to focus on the professor. the only classes i have together with people is aas33b, with michelle and a new friend of mine jayne. (funny how i met jayne actually. she's really popular on youtube now because her and her friends covered "erase me." i met her over youtube and facebook, and we ended up enrolling in the same class for spring.) pretty cool.
i start most of my week later in the day too. at 1045 to be exact. :) except on wednesdays, because i have a lab at 730. not looking forward to that, but it's a good thing it's only one day. and i also have a friday class from 12-1. guess it's a good thing. i can practice driving to campus, since hardly anyone is at school on fridays.
that's enough about school. let's talk about other things. even though i've gone through a lot of different problems, i'll talk about the good things that's happened.
after maboohay in october, i was honored to become friends with a few people i've looked up to for so long. the main person that i'm grateful for becoming friends with is none other than melissa polinar. yes, THE melissa polinar. how did i meet her? well, i first met her at the maboohay meet and greet. i didn't have much time to talk to her, but it was after maboohay where we started talking more. as with the maboohay concerts i go to, i took a lot of pictures of the event. you know, just to hone my photography skills. i posted them up on facebook, and tagged a few of the performers that i had as a friend, and one of them was melissa. i wasn't expecting anything, because what famous youtube singer/performer would notice a nobody's photography? i take their pictures out of the kindness of my heart. well, i was completely wrong about no one noticing. a day after maboohay, i get 3 notifications...all from one person: melissa polinar. she "liked" a particular picture, then used it as her profile picture for her personal facebook and singer facebook. i thanked her so many times, and to this day, i still don't think it's enough. why? because it was that picture that opened me up to so many opportunities.
a few weeks later, i get an email from christina luna (the luna co). she runs one of the most successful managements for asian-american artists, such as gabe bondoc, melissa polinar, and such. she personally thanked me for the pictures that i took of melissa. (i forgot to mention that melissa asked me to send her the raw files of those pictures for her to use. the most well-known thing that those pictures were used for was for melissa's kickstarter video.) they'll also be using them for any other thing that they need it for, and personally credit me for taking it.
this is just a tidbit of the amazing-ness that happened to me, and it raised my spirits so much. i gotta give thanks for melissa and the luna co. they were the kick start to more success. i also have to thank them for reviving my love for photography once again. i wasn't able to touch my camera until that day of maboohay, but now i use it as much as i did when i first started taking pictures.
till next time again.
soul4soulcv.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
"lord in this worship dwells my peace, for in your presence my heart can rest..."
i've come to realize that i've been a dark place for awhile. i know that i don't show it, since i'm really good at masking my real emotions. but yes, i'm pretty unstable right now with what's going on around me. school has been kicking me in the butt. only 2 more months till the end of the semester, and my grades are not where i want them to be. i've been so distracted lately too. it's hard for me to study or do homework when i have it. it's hard for me to pay attention during class. it's been hard for me to have patience. i've never had these problems before, so why do i have it now? not only do i have school to worry about, there are other problems i'm going through...life problems.
i hate seeing people cry. i hate seeing people upset and about to lose hope, especially when it comes to show that the people who are going through are the ones who are the closest.
it also hard for me to say, but i hate the fact that one of my most favorite memories...is only just a memory that'll never happen again, because recalling it is just too painful to think of.
today's worship service made me think of these things.
during worship service, i prayed and meditated, as i do every worship service before performing. i prayed so hard that the problems that i'm having with school, i would be able to endure and get through it. i've never prayed so hard for school before. during the hymn singing, i cried in almost every hymn. there were tears rolling down my face, and every time i tried to wipe it away, they just kept coming. especially during 116.
then the lesson about worship service inspired me. what made it a little more special was the fact that my friend's uncle was the minister. his way of preaching made me understand the lesson a lot more. as many ministers would say if they were to teach this lesson, he said that "you think your problems are impossible? NOTHING is impossible with God...he's just waiting for you to call on him to ask for his help." even though the stuff going on in the world brings you down, you just have to remember that turning away from God won't solve your problems. blaming God for your problems isn't the answer. you have to be strong. if you're faced with a problem for a long time, examine yourself, then turn to God. that's what the lesson was basically about. it helped me realize that the problems i'm facing aren't impossible. just turn to God, and he'll help.
seeing family suffer just breaks my heart so much. i'm not gonna go into detail about this, since it's not my business to talk about. i just don't like seeing them upset. and the fact that they're trying to make things seem normal again makes it worse. they make things overly positive and then afterwards start moping around.
another thing about this evening is that i realized that people are growing up. this evening, i had the chance to catch up a little bit with a friend of mine who i haven't talked to in awhile. i've known her since she was 7 (i was 10). she's currently a senior in high school, getting ready for college. she was telling me that she's applying to a few CSU's and she's stressing out over it. it's not a big surprise. what surprised me is that she has a maintained 4.00 (probably higher) GPA...and she didn't tell me this, i already knew about it actually, but she has a job. AND she's in the choir.
this girl is amazing. when we were younger, she looked up to me as a person. now, I'M the one looking up to her. i don't even know anymore, i'm just amazed at her right now. i've known this girl for 10 years...where has the time gone? she's already going to college? you know what? she's growing up, and i couldn't be more proud of her.
although with all this positive vibes from this person, you wouldn't have thought it would hurt me...
back when i was in the 8th grade, we (me and my friend i just talked about) were in this group of 10 people. we were so close knit during that time...we did everything together. they were the one's who i looked forward to seeing every weekend.
but then that group started to break apart. eventually, that group ceased to exist. hardly ever spoke to each other, all we got were "hi's." then i think of this other person in that group of 10, who i looked up to at the time. she was heading to the top. we were the same age, about to tackle the world...then she moved. few years later, she married and has a daughter. there's also other stuff, but no need to explain that. just know that i was extremely upset at her actions she chose. i'm still a little upset at the moment, even though it's been awhile since i heard of this news.
seeing my friend tonight, the memories of that group of 10 flowed back to my memory. i recalled all those happy times we had together...then i thought of that friend i looked up to. i cried silently because i remembered she wasn't the same girl from that time. her actions ruined my perspective of her. i try to block her actions like i never heard about it, but it just doesn't work. now, one of my memories that i've held so close to me for so long...it's practically gone. all because of the actions of one.
this entry was all over the place...but it really doesn't matter.
the main point is that i've did a lot of thinking tonight. thinking, crying, contemplating, meditating...just to get some enlightenment. the lesson we had this evening helped me out A LOT. i really needed it. i'm going through a lot right now, and people don't see it. they don't need to see it. but all those problems i'm going through right now, even though most of them aren't mine, i know for a fact that i can turn to God and ask for his guidance. and he'll be able to help me. and i also know and have been reminded that being in the worship service gives me the peace from all those problems. when i'm there, the problems disappear one by one. it's like it doesn't matter anymore when i'm there...because i know that God's there. he's saying that, "it's ok...i'm here for you," when you feel like you're alone facing those problems.
here's to an evening of enlightenment and important reminders.
...I know that I can face my darkest moments,
For even in my sorrow I am blessed...
LORD how I wait upon this day,
That I may worship before your sight.
I feel my worries fade within your mercy,
As I draw ever closer to your side.
i hate seeing people cry. i hate seeing people upset and about to lose hope, especially when it comes to show that the people who are going through are the ones who are the closest.
it also hard for me to say, but i hate the fact that one of my most favorite memories...is only just a memory that'll never happen again, because recalling it is just too painful to think of.
today's worship service made me think of these things.
during worship service, i prayed and meditated, as i do every worship service before performing. i prayed so hard that the problems that i'm having with school, i would be able to endure and get through it. i've never prayed so hard for school before. during the hymn singing, i cried in almost every hymn. there were tears rolling down my face, and every time i tried to wipe it away, they just kept coming. especially during 116.
then the lesson about worship service inspired me. what made it a little more special was the fact that my friend's uncle was the minister. his way of preaching made me understand the lesson a lot more. as many ministers would say if they were to teach this lesson, he said that "you think your problems are impossible? NOTHING is impossible with God...he's just waiting for you to call on him to ask for his help." even though the stuff going on in the world brings you down, you just have to remember that turning away from God won't solve your problems. blaming God for your problems isn't the answer. you have to be strong. if you're faced with a problem for a long time, examine yourself, then turn to God. that's what the lesson was basically about. it helped me realize that the problems i'm facing aren't impossible. just turn to God, and he'll help.
seeing family suffer just breaks my heart so much. i'm not gonna go into detail about this, since it's not my business to talk about. i just don't like seeing them upset. and the fact that they're trying to make things seem normal again makes it worse. they make things overly positive and then afterwards start moping around.
another thing about this evening is that i realized that people are growing up. this evening, i had the chance to catch up a little bit with a friend of mine who i haven't talked to in awhile. i've known her since she was 7 (i was 10). she's currently a senior in high school, getting ready for college. she was telling me that she's applying to a few CSU's and she's stressing out over it. it's not a big surprise. what surprised me is that she has a maintained 4.00 (probably higher) GPA...and she didn't tell me this, i already knew about it actually, but she has a job. AND she's in the choir.
this girl is amazing. when we were younger, she looked up to me as a person. now, I'M the one looking up to her. i don't even know anymore, i'm just amazed at her right now. i've known this girl for 10 years...where has the time gone? she's already going to college? you know what? she's growing up, and i couldn't be more proud of her.
although with all this positive vibes from this person, you wouldn't have thought it would hurt me...
back when i was in the 8th grade, we (me and my friend i just talked about) were in this group of 10 people. we were so close knit during that time...we did everything together. they were the one's who i looked forward to seeing every weekend.
but then that group started to break apart. eventually, that group ceased to exist. hardly ever spoke to each other, all we got were "hi's." then i think of this other person in that group of 10, who i looked up to at the time. she was heading to the top. we were the same age, about to tackle the world...then she moved. few years later, she married and has a daughter. there's also other stuff, but no need to explain that. just know that i was extremely upset at her actions she chose. i'm still a little upset at the moment, even though it's been awhile since i heard of this news.
seeing my friend tonight, the memories of that group of 10 flowed back to my memory. i recalled all those happy times we had together...then i thought of that friend i looked up to. i cried silently because i remembered she wasn't the same girl from that time. her actions ruined my perspective of her. i try to block her actions like i never heard about it, but it just doesn't work. now, one of my memories that i've held so close to me for so long...it's practically gone. all because of the actions of one.
this entry was all over the place...but it really doesn't matter.
the main point is that i've did a lot of thinking tonight. thinking, crying, contemplating, meditating...just to get some enlightenment. the lesson we had this evening helped me out A LOT. i really needed it. i'm going through a lot right now, and people don't see it. they don't need to see it. but all those problems i'm going through right now, even though most of them aren't mine, i know for a fact that i can turn to God and ask for his guidance. and he'll be able to help me. and i also know and have been reminded that being in the worship service gives me the peace from all those problems. when i'm there, the problems disappear one by one. it's like it doesn't matter anymore when i'm there...because i know that God's there. he's saying that, "it's ok...i'm here for you," when you feel like you're alone facing those problems.
here's to an evening of enlightenment and important reminders.
...I know that I can face my darkest moments,
For even in my sorrow I am blessed...
LORD how I wait upon this day,
That I may worship before your sight.
I feel my worries fade within your mercy,
As I draw ever closer to your side.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
"there's always three sides to a story-yours, theirs, and your judgment..."
short, sweet blog for tonight. i've thought a lot lately about if i were to choose a side in a situation. what contributed to that would be what happened yesterday amongst some, if not all, fil-am musicians.
i'm not choosing a side...i'm never going to choose a side because i believe that what's happening is just bollocks. also, i don't know the full story on what happened, so i can't judge.
but if i WERE to side with someone, i would have to back up the one who chose to be the bigger person, and not would not have even thought of bringing up the situation in front of the public's eyes. it's pretty immature to call out someone in public and make a huge spectacle of you and the person...yet alone, start cussing at them like there's no tomorrow. also with the cussing, is there no other words in the english language to use instead of those words? it doesn't emphasize anything. it only shows that you'd rather be cussing a person out, trying to make that person feel sorry, and hope they break down somehow.
also, if i were to side with someone, it would most especially be the one that had the most honest story. so far, i've heard one side...the side of negativity amongst one person...i haven't heard anything from the affirmative action. i won't be able to judge unless i hear that side, but i guess it's for the better not to hear it. this drama has gone far enough, and it's only been a day. i do hope whatever happened, it'll find its way of them forgiving and forgetting. it's hard seeing these people that i've looked up to for so long fighting like this.
soul4soulcv.
i'm not choosing a side...i'm never going to choose a side because i believe that what's happening is just bollocks. also, i don't know the full story on what happened, so i can't judge.
but if i WERE to side with someone, i would have to back up the one who chose to be the bigger person, and not would not have even thought of bringing up the situation in front of the public's eyes. it's pretty immature to call out someone in public and make a huge spectacle of you and the person...yet alone, start cussing at them like there's no tomorrow. also with the cussing, is there no other words in the english language to use instead of those words? it doesn't emphasize anything. it only shows that you'd rather be cussing a person out, trying to make that person feel sorry, and hope they break down somehow.
also, if i were to side with someone, it would most especially be the one that had the most honest story. so far, i've heard one side...the side of negativity amongst one person...i haven't heard anything from the affirmative action. i won't be able to judge unless i hear that side, but i guess it's for the better not to hear it. this drama has gone far enough, and it's only been a day. i do hope whatever happened, it'll find its way of them forgiving and forgetting. it's hard seeing these people that i've looked up to for so long fighting like this.
soul4soulcv.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
one moment.
isn't it crazy how one small thing can change an entire day? i find it crazy. you can be having the time of your life, and then something happens. such a killjoy right?
i'm not one to suffer from stress attacks or nervous breakdowns often. today, i did.
every week, i have a chemistry quiz. right now, we're doing organic chemistry...with all the nomenclature and stuff. if you've done o. chem, you know that it's relatively simple. you just need to know the rules. but when it comes to the reactions and addition/substitution of whatever, then it starts to get complicated. that's where i'm at. what sucks the most? i missed half an hour of a the lecture that was talking about this part. why? because my stupid lab instructor takes forever and a day in explaining. he's only suppose to be there to answer questions and to be there to supervise the experiments going on. it seems that this lab instructor that i have has got it backwards. he goes on explaining every single detail...and it doesn't help.
that's why i got a stress attack in studying for this in the last hour...because i'm afraid that it's gonna be on the quiz and i'll have no idea what's going on. if i don't understand what's going on, even for one small thing, i choke. i'll forget everything.
but it seems that this stress attack that i had actually helped me out. it put me in the zone, and helped me focus on the material. i took a good look at my notes i took, and thank goodness for google, i was able to understand the general concept of what was going on in the parts of the lecture i missed.
i don't know if it's only me that this happens to. i'm pretty grateful for that stress attack. knocked me into focus mode. hopefully, this quiz will be easy. i heard it was...
soul4soulcv.
i'm not one to suffer from stress attacks or nervous breakdowns often. today, i did.
every week, i have a chemistry quiz. right now, we're doing organic chemistry...with all the nomenclature and stuff. if you've done o. chem, you know that it's relatively simple. you just need to know the rules. but when it comes to the reactions and addition/substitution of whatever, then it starts to get complicated. that's where i'm at. what sucks the most? i missed half an hour of a the lecture that was talking about this part. why? because my stupid lab instructor takes forever and a day in explaining. he's only suppose to be there to answer questions and to be there to supervise the experiments going on. it seems that this lab instructor that i have has got it backwards. he goes on explaining every single detail...and it doesn't help.
that's why i got a stress attack in studying for this in the last hour...because i'm afraid that it's gonna be on the quiz and i'll have no idea what's going on. if i don't understand what's going on, even for one small thing, i choke. i'll forget everything.
but it seems that this stress attack that i had actually helped me out. it put me in the zone, and helped me focus on the material. i took a good look at my notes i took, and thank goodness for google, i was able to understand the general concept of what was going on in the parts of the lecture i missed.
i don't know if it's only me that this happens to. i'm pretty grateful for that stress attack. knocked me into focus mode. hopefully, this quiz will be easy. i heard it was...
soul4soulcv.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
"Those are all people who can't really sing, don't wear very many clothes, and get married far too young. What do we call those sorts of people?"
"..AMERICANS!!" lol
here's some updating on my random bits of my life as of right now. i've been writing about random thoughts, and i thought i'd might as well write about something that i'm interested in as of now. i get into trying/watching new things a lot. it's fun.
well, right before summer ended, i got interested in a television show called, "Skins." actually, i think i've been interested in it even long before watching the episodes. tumblr kinda contributed it to that. i've seen so many different pictures, gifs, etc. of the casts...also, i heard about this series in a book i was reading. it was one of the Pretty Little Liars books. i forget which one...but it referenced the 3rd season. so i thought i might as well watch a few episodes and see what's up with this series.
i'll tell you though, after the third episode, i was hooked. it was so different from what i'm used to watching. i watch a lot of Disney and Nickelodeon, so watching Skins was like i got hit with a huge dose of endorphins.
if you know the series...actually, you DON'T know the series. you're a blog of my thoughts up till whenever i stopped writing. so i'll tell you about it. how i would describe this series...it's like the show Degrassi, but not held back.
what do i mean by "not held back?" exactly as i stated. i'll tell you why i got hooked after the third episode, instead of the first though. the reason why is because i was so overwhelmed at the fact that nothing was held back. when there was profanity in the dialogue, the characters went all out and cussed out a storm. when there was a moment of intimacy, there's intimacy...skin, sound, and all. NOTHING was held back. they went all out. i give my props to Eisley (creator of the series.)
since i was so overwhelmed with what the characters did on the show, it took me a long time to finish the 1st season. after the first season, i was ok. i zoomed through the 2nd-4th season...and i finished the 4th season this morning. now, i'm just waiting for the 5th season to air. although, i'm not looking forward to the American adaptation of Skins. why? you'll see...
the fact that nothing was held back in this series is what made me come to question: why is it that UK television is so different from US television? c'mon, right now on US television, we have Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, Pretty Little Liars, etc. when it comes to dramas. but haven't you noticed when you watch any of the episodes of these series, it seems like there's something missing? for me, it does...it REALLY does. it's like...you're left with wanting a lot more than what the show is giving you. when you see two characters kiss, you want to see more of what their doing.
here's an example: (DISCLAIMER: chillax when i make this reference.)
on Pretty Little Liars, there are two characters: Emily and Maya. Emily, as of right now, is pretty much questioning who she is, what she is...Maya is someone who is facilitating Emily to come to terms to who she is. it's kinda obvious who Emily becomes at this point. anyways, there was this scene in the episode called, "Keep Your Friends Close," where Emily and Maya go on a date. a few scenes later, they're seen making out.
friendly and it's what you wanted to see...but that scene is lightweight stuff, when i compare it to Skins.
like Pretty Little Liars, there are two characters involved. the storyline is much like Pretty Little Liars as well. The characters involved in this comparison are Emily and Naomi. (i think the name 'Emily' was coincidental...)
anyways, unlike Emily in Pretty Little Liars, Emily in Skins KNOWS who she is. she hid it for awhile because of her twin sister's feelings against Naomi. Naomi is the one Emily "fancies." although the back story says that it was Naomi that started things off, it was very much Emily who started it. Naomi was the one who was trying to come to terms of who she is. well, i'll reference another scene much like the one in Pretty Little Liars. in season 3, episode 6 titled, "Naomi," Emily and Naomi...what's the phrase i learned to use...oh, "had a moment" together. unlike the scene in Pretty Little Liars, it was a lot more intense. these two went all out...down to every single detail. i was in shock...but in a good way. i'm open to new ideas, so it was different...who cares. it's a tv show, yeah?
well, you get the picture i'm trying to paint here. there's so many differences between UK television and US television...it's so hard to name them all. even though the US came from the UK, you would think that something as little as television would be the same. not even close.
in my opinion, i would turn to UK television once in awhile. it won't change my views on US television. i still enjoy my iCarly, Victorious, and Phineas and Ferb. but currently, i'm pretty hooked on Skins, so i probably won't be watching US television for awhile...maybe a few days. or until GLEE or Pretty Little Liars starts up again.
that's all for now. good night.
soul4soulcv.
here's some updating on my random bits of my life as of right now. i've been writing about random thoughts, and i thought i'd might as well write about something that i'm interested in as of now. i get into trying/watching new things a lot. it's fun.
well, right before summer ended, i got interested in a television show called, "Skins." actually, i think i've been interested in it even long before watching the episodes. tumblr kinda contributed it to that. i've seen so many different pictures, gifs, etc. of the casts...also, i heard about this series in a book i was reading. it was one of the Pretty Little Liars books. i forget which one...but it referenced the 3rd season. so i thought i might as well watch a few episodes and see what's up with this series.
i'll tell you though, after the third episode, i was hooked. it was so different from what i'm used to watching. i watch a lot of Disney and Nickelodeon, so watching Skins was like i got hit with a huge dose of endorphins.
if you know the series...actually, you DON'T know the series. you're a blog of my thoughts up till whenever i stopped writing. so i'll tell you about it. how i would describe this series...it's like the show Degrassi, but not held back.
what do i mean by "not held back?" exactly as i stated. i'll tell you why i got hooked after the third episode, instead of the first though. the reason why is because i was so overwhelmed at the fact that nothing was held back. when there was profanity in the dialogue, the characters went all out and cussed out a storm. when there was a moment of intimacy, there's intimacy...skin, sound, and all. NOTHING was held back. they went all out. i give my props to Eisley (creator of the series.)
since i was so overwhelmed with what the characters did on the show, it took me a long time to finish the 1st season. after the first season, i was ok. i zoomed through the 2nd-4th season...and i finished the 4th season this morning. now, i'm just waiting for the 5th season to air. although, i'm not looking forward to the American adaptation of Skins. why? you'll see...
the fact that nothing was held back in this series is what made me come to question: why is it that UK television is so different from US television? c'mon, right now on US television, we have Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, Pretty Little Liars, etc. when it comes to dramas. but haven't you noticed when you watch any of the episodes of these series, it seems like there's something missing? for me, it does...it REALLY does. it's like...you're left with wanting a lot more than what the show is giving you. when you see two characters kiss, you want to see more of what their doing.
here's an example: (DISCLAIMER: chillax when i make this reference.)
on Pretty Little Liars, there are two characters: Emily and Maya. Emily, as of right now, is pretty much questioning who she is, what she is...Maya is someone who is facilitating Emily to come to terms to who she is. it's kinda obvious who Emily becomes at this point. anyways, there was this scene in the episode called, "Keep Your Friends Close," where Emily and Maya go on a date. a few scenes later, they're seen making out.
friendly and it's what you wanted to see...but that scene is lightweight stuff, when i compare it to Skins.
like Pretty Little Liars, there are two characters involved. the storyline is much like Pretty Little Liars as well. The characters involved in this comparison are Emily and Naomi. (i think the name 'Emily' was coincidental...)
anyways, unlike Emily in Pretty Little Liars, Emily in Skins KNOWS who she is. she hid it for awhile because of her twin sister's feelings against Naomi. Naomi is the one Emily "fancies." although the back story says that it was Naomi that started things off, it was very much Emily who started it. Naomi was the one who was trying to come to terms of who she is. well, i'll reference another scene much like the one in Pretty Little Liars. in season 3, episode 6 titled, "Naomi," Emily and Naomi...what's the phrase i learned to use...oh, "had a moment" together. unlike the scene in Pretty Little Liars, it was a lot more intense. these two went all out...down to every single detail. i was in shock...but in a good way. i'm open to new ideas, so it was different...who cares. it's a tv show, yeah?
well, you get the picture i'm trying to paint here. there's so many differences between UK television and US television...it's so hard to name them all. even though the US came from the UK, you would think that something as little as television would be the same. not even close.
in my opinion, i would turn to UK television once in awhile. it won't change my views on US television. i still enjoy my iCarly, Victorious, and Phineas and Ferb. but currently, i'm pretty hooked on Skins, so i probably won't be watching US television for awhile...maybe a few days. or until GLEE or Pretty Little Liars starts up again.
that's all for now. good night.
soul4soulcv.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
it runs in the family.
it's been awhile since i've written on this. usually, i'd be typing this up on my phone before sleeping, since that's where i get my last minute inspiration. anyways, i started my second year of college last wednesday. so far, i'm liking it. for one thing, no more english and math to worry about. my classes right now are basically just a class where i take notes and read. it's not much, but i'm not gonna judge the workload i'll be getting based on the first day. i've been reading a lot so far with the "homework" i've gotten. the readings are pretty long, especially for one particular class. but i actually enjoyed reading it and have taken interest.
we always hear the saying, "it runs in the family." this saying is applied to almost everything we do. everything we do, probably someone in our family in the past has done it as well. is that why we do things? is that why we act the way we act? because of our lineage?
so that class that i've taken interest in is philosophy 10, or intro to philosophy. i'll be honest, the only reason why i took this class for this semester was to fill my units up. the class itself on the first day was a bit dull, especially the fact that the teacher mumbled her words. i thought, "great. it's one of THESE teachers." when i got home that afternoon, i started reading the textbook we had to get for the class. i was really intrigued with the way the textbook was worded. it was like the book was speaking to me. for sure, it wasn't like the 3rd person type of textbook we're all used to. seriously, it's one of the most interesting things i've ever read. the subject of philosophy itself is all about questioning people's thoughts and for you to be open to new ideas. maybe that's why i liked what i've read so far. because throughout the book, it was questioning the previous points that were mentioned...
i question about things a lot, especially lately. i question myself what, when, why, how...it's because of the questioning that helps me write a lot easier.
why did i bring up the subject of family and philosophy? i had a grandparent that i hardly saw. i probably saw him twice in my lifetime. actually, i don't even know if i'm actually related to him. you know, filipino families and all that. we call everyone our relatives...anyways, even though i hardly ever saw him, i heard a lot of stories about him. for one thing, i was told that he graduated as a lawyer. he also majored in, you guessed it, philosophy. i wonder, is that why i'm interested in this subject? i'll never know. but i find it interesting that out of all the classes that i could have taken for this semester, i took this one. i had other GE classes to choose from, and i settled for a subject that i pretty much chose blindly...
well, like i said, who knows. maybe it's trying to tell me something.
i'm looking forward to the first lecture for this class. hopefully, it'll be easy...and the teacher will break down all the ideas that each philosopher possessed. i'm not saying that i want an easy way to learn this, but it would be nice to know if the way that i'm comprehending the book is the correct way.
soul4soulcv.
we always hear the saying, "it runs in the family." this saying is applied to almost everything we do. everything we do, probably someone in our family in the past has done it as well. is that why we do things? is that why we act the way we act? because of our lineage?
so that class that i've taken interest in is philosophy 10, or intro to philosophy. i'll be honest, the only reason why i took this class for this semester was to fill my units up. the class itself on the first day was a bit dull, especially the fact that the teacher mumbled her words. i thought, "great. it's one of THESE teachers." when i got home that afternoon, i started reading the textbook we had to get for the class. i was really intrigued with the way the textbook was worded. it was like the book was speaking to me. for sure, it wasn't like the 3rd person type of textbook we're all used to. seriously, it's one of the most interesting things i've ever read. the subject of philosophy itself is all about questioning people's thoughts and for you to be open to new ideas. maybe that's why i liked what i've read so far. because throughout the book, it was questioning the previous points that were mentioned...
i question about things a lot, especially lately. i question myself what, when, why, how...it's because of the questioning that helps me write a lot easier.
why did i bring up the subject of family and philosophy? i had a grandparent that i hardly saw. i probably saw him twice in my lifetime. actually, i don't even know if i'm actually related to him. you know, filipino families and all that. we call everyone our relatives...anyways, even though i hardly ever saw him, i heard a lot of stories about him. for one thing, i was told that he graduated as a lawyer. he also majored in, you guessed it, philosophy. i wonder, is that why i'm interested in this subject? i'll never know. but i find it interesting that out of all the classes that i could have taken for this semester, i took this one. i had other GE classes to choose from, and i settled for a subject that i pretty much chose blindly...
well, like i said, who knows. maybe it's trying to tell me something.
i'm looking forward to the first lecture for this class. hopefully, it'll be easy...and the teacher will break down all the ideas that each philosopher possessed. i'm not saying that i want an easy way to learn this, but it would be nice to know if the way that i'm comprehending the book is the correct way.
soul4soulcv.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
No day, but today.
Ever since I can remember, I've been madly in love with stage production. Working backstage, performing onstage, watching it all come together...it's seriously a rush! It started when I was about 6 years old. For almost a year, I attended and watched practices for an original stage production that my church had called, "30 Years In the West." I was in so much awe. These people, these brethren, they put countless hours into practicing their numbers. They spent even more hours off practice and recorded their vocals for the musical numbers...and not to mention, they weren't professional actors or singers. They did it for the fun. I remember the first musical number that brought me to tears...it was from tha very production. The emotion on the actors' faces, the deep lyrics, their everything...it made me very emotional. A few years after that happened, my mom forced me to join yet another church production. It wasn't an original, but it was a classic. We did our interpretation of "Joseph and the Amazong Technicolor Dreamcoat." that experience was far from just watching. This production took us almost 2 years of practicing an perfecting. I spent every weekend at rehearsals, and sometimes the weekdays too. It was a lot for a little me to handle. But all that practice was so worth it. For when the days finally came for opening night, the audience was in awe. All that work paid off in the end. I'll never forget that thrill. I haven't had that thrill in awhile, because we haven't had a major production since then...but seriously, that's where my love for stage production started. It made me appreciate how much hard work can pay off in the long run.
There's one particular stage production that I want to talk about. It's not a Disney one, but rather...it's a musical about making it in life. It's about...even though you may not be the richest person, or the most perfect person in the world...ad long as you have your friends around you, you CAN make it. (something along the lines of that.) the musical that I'm, somehow, trying to talk about...and I love dearly is none other than RENT. This musical, this stage production has so much history behind it. I myself, didn't find out about this musical until my auntie told me about it. Like I wrote on tumblr, I'm happy she did. It was something about this musical that stuck. The first time I watched it (the movie version), I was...confused. This was back in 06. I didn't understand the essence of it at all. I said to myself, "umm...so, these people are pretty much bankrupt and their singing about it?" but even though I said this, I watched it again and again...i bought the piano score sheets and learned every song. I even watched all the interviews and documentaries on it's history. That was when it hit me. This musical...try applying it to your life. There were 6 main characters, all with different personalities. The starving musician, the girl next door, the independent film maker, the actress, the actresses hubbie, etc. Each had their own story, and it diverged into this one musical. I applied myself to the "independent film maker" at the time. He saw everything through the lens, and it's through the lens of his camera where he saw how much is going on in the world. He saw the reality of life...any of these characters, you can see how they saw life as, and you can relate to them fully. Even in the lyrics of each song that was sung...they had funky titles, but accurate. "Santa Fe," "Seasons Of Love," "Halloween," "I'll Cover You," just to name a few. Tr imagery that was used...you can really see it, feel it, smell it. I'll use "Seasons of Love" as an example. "525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear...how do you measure, a year in a life? How about love?" the song is the opening of the musical, so it has to be memorable. This is sung on an empty stage, with a beam if spotlight on each of the characters. That's it. It's so simple. Put the lyrics and the staging together, and you can fully understand tue concept of the song. You still don't get it? Basically, it's saying that life is simple. We measure a moment in our life through the technical things, numbers, minutes...why not measure it in something as simple as love? That's what we remember the most, right? How much we love a person? That's the kind of message a song should have. Not this nonsense we have nowadays where the message of a song is to love the way someone lies...what kind of person loves the way people lie? That's why I hardly ever listen to mainstream music. To put it straight, musicals > mainstream radio. And the fact that no overdose of autotune is used in recording. It's pure singing, with no edits. So thank you Jonathan Larson. Thank you for the inspiring music and musical overall.
All in all, I love the theater. It's something that I can watch that's somewhat classy, in comparison to watching a bootleg movie online. You get all the essence of entertainment into one big package. You got your singing, dancing, art, acting, writing...what more can you ask for? You know, I really wish that i can see a musical again, especially a stage production of RENT. That would be so nice. I also wish that I can do something with my life that had to do with stage production. The rush I get...it's the best feeling you can possibly get. It's my natural high, really.
"The heart may freeze, or it can burn,
The pain will ease, if I can learn.
There is no future, there is no past.
I live this moment as my last.
There's only us, there's only this,
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss.
No other road, no other way,
No day but today." -Mimi, "Another Day"
soul4soulcv.
There's one particular stage production that I want to talk about. It's not a Disney one, but rather...it's a musical about making it in life. It's about...even though you may not be the richest person, or the most perfect person in the world...ad long as you have your friends around you, you CAN make it. (something along the lines of that.) the musical that I'm, somehow, trying to talk about...and I love dearly is none other than RENT. This musical, this stage production has so much history behind it. I myself, didn't find out about this musical until my auntie told me about it. Like I wrote on tumblr, I'm happy she did. It was something about this musical that stuck. The first time I watched it (the movie version), I was...confused. This was back in 06. I didn't understand the essence of it at all. I said to myself, "umm...so, these people are pretty much bankrupt and their singing about it?" but even though I said this, I watched it again and again...i bought the piano score sheets and learned every song. I even watched all the interviews and documentaries on it's history. That was when it hit me. This musical...try applying it to your life. There were 6 main characters, all with different personalities. The starving musician, the girl next door, the independent film maker, the actress, the actresses hubbie, etc. Each had their own story, and it diverged into this one musical. I applied myself to the "independent film maker" at the time. He saw everything through the lens, and it's through the lens of his camera where he saw how much is going on in the world. He saw the reality of life...any of these characters, you can see how they saw life as, and you can relate to them fully. Even in the lyrics of each song that was sung...they had funky titles, but accurate. "Santa Fe," "Seasons Of Love," "Halloween," "I'll Cover You," just to name a few. Tr imagery that was used...you can really see it, feel it, smell it. I'll use "Seasons of Love" as an example. "525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear...how do you measure, a year in a life? How about love?" the song is the opening of the musical, so it has to be memorable. This is sung on an empty stage, with a beam if spotlight on each of the characters. That's it. It's so simple. Put the lyrics and the staging together, and you can fully understand tue concept of the song. You still don't get it? Basically, it's saying that life is simple. We measure a moment in our life through the technical things, numbers, minutes...why not measure it in something as simple as love? That's what we remember the most, right? How much we love a person? That's the kind of message a song should have. Not this nonsense we have nowadays where the message of a song is to love the way someone lies...what kind of person loves the way people lie? That's why I hardly ever listen to mainstream music. To put it straight, musicals > mainstream radio. And the fact that no overdose of autotune is used in recording. It's pure singing, with no edits. So thank you Jonathan Larson. Thank you for the inspiring music and musical overall.
All in all, I love the theater. It's something that I can watch that's somewhat classy, in comparison to watching a bootleg movie online. You get all the essence of entertainment into one big package. You got your singing, dancing, art, acting, writing...what more can you ask for? You know, I really wish that i can see a musical again, especially a stage production of RENT. That would be so nice. I also wish that I can do something with my life that had to do with stage production. The rush I get...it's the best feeling you can possibly get. It's my natural high, really.
"The heart may freeze, or it can burn,
The pain will ease, if I can learn.
There is no future, there is no past.
I live this moment as my last.
There's only us, there's only this,
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss.
No other road, no other way,
No day but today." -Mimi, "Another Day"
soul4soulcv.
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